My greatest fear? Becoming worse than the monsters... becoming the creature that Richard already thinks that I am.

Richard already thinks I'm too close to what he calls the monsters -- even though in a technical sense, he's one too. Then again, he thinks Edward is a monster, too.

I've gotten better at accepting who I am -- something that I don't think Richard ever will. I'm the sweetie of a vampire master... and the physical and spiritual mate of a Leopard king. This doesn't take into account my relationship with Asher... or Damian or Nathaniel or...

Am I monster?

I don't know, but I don't think so.

I don't hesitate to do whatever I feel I have to do to protect me and mine. I have seen too much death and destruction and I don't want to lose anyone else.

I don't want to die, either.

I don't enjoy killing, but that doesn't mean I won't hesitate to do so if I have to.

Yeah, I'm afraid of becoming worse than the monsters...

...but I also think I have people around me who would put me down if that ever became the case.



Muse: Anita Blake
Fandom: "Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter"
Words: 194